Just Believe
I would be remiss if I didn't write just a little about the most beautiful holiday seasons. For some, they are joy-filled, exciting, perfect. For many others, too many, they are stress-filled, over-taxed and sometimes very lonely. Much of the season is created by our circumstances. When I was happily married with little ones, it was stress-ful, certainly, but it was full of joy and anticipation and fun. Then when that family splintered, I was left with the feeling that I had to 'do it all'. See every Christmas show, participate in every bit of music, over-spend and over-do to make up for the 'brokenness' that was now to be our 'new normal'. Then the next year, I fell into apathy. Painful, painless apathy. I just didn't care. The tree was purchased, but never decorated until Christmas Eve. The bare minimums were the rule as it was 'his year' for the children. It was lonely and sad, but there were still moments of joy....